I was in a horrible marriage for 13 years to a woman that treated me like garbage. After we had been divorced for about a year, and a couple of other short term relationships that were dead ends, I started seeing this younger woman that I had known since she was a young teenager, she tells me that she has always wanted to be with me, and has just been waiting for the right time to tell me. This girl treats me like the greatest thing that has ever walked the face of the earth, and treats my two very young children like they were her own. We got engaged a few months later, and were planning on being married as soon as possible.
It being her first marriage she of course wanted a big wedding, so we started planning, we even drove to Texas and picked up a box truck full of furniture her Grandparents bought us just two months before our wedding.
A few weeks before the wedding her folks from Texas visited over a weekend, and she was supposed to come back to Knoxville on monday...she didn't show up. I called and called and called for two days..no answer at her moms.
I come home from work on Wednesday night, and there is a U-haul in my driveway, and she and her folks are there loading all her stuff, and the furniture we had just went and got in Texas..I walk in the house and she comes up to me and hands me a letter and walks away. I read the letter telling me why she is not going to marry me, walk in the bedroom, kiss her and tell her I hope she has a nice life, and I leave...
I had just beaten drugs and alcohol right before we started dating, and I felt like she was a gift from God. I mean I had begged God for somebody that would love me and treat me good, and then she just shows up...I felt like God had just played a cruel joke on me, and I left that house and started driving toward the nearest bar intending to drink myself into oblivion...but I didn't...I stopped there right on the side of Alcoa highway and got out and threw my keys in the grass. I dropped to my knees and asked God to forgive me and give me strength, and the patience to follow his plan. I then walked to a pay phone and called my mom to come and get me...
Anyways a year later I'm sitting in CiCis on Kingston pike with my family, and a girl I had known since I was a small kid walks in with a couple of other old friends of mine. I had not seen her in 15 years, and so I go over, and sit down next to her, and we start talking to them, come to find out she was recently divorced from her cheating, abusive husband...We have been together ever since that night almost 20 years ago...she really is an angel sent from God. She has been right beside every step of the way no matter how tough, and she believes in me more than I believe in myself.
Sorry for the epic, but I hope that is helpful to you. Life is too precious to waste so much as a breath on a person who doesn't love you as much as you love them...be patient, and keep trusting in the Lord.