It would be (can’t think of word here - crazy? abnormal? delusional?) not to have these what-ifs try to intrude on your brain. I guess all you can do about them is acknowledge the fears and then just focus on the next hour, the next day, the next week, the next month.I kinda feel guilty. This is weird to post, or definitely talk about to someone, but stuff that I think. Not that I want something bad to happen, but I know how bad she can get quick, and your mind wonders how much she can take. I think stuff like how I hope she can hold on and be okay to watch the girls at state, or hope she can hold on till the oldest gets out here in a couple of months. It's weird cause it's not like I'm thinking she's going to really die soon, but I know the more she gets septic her body is going to wear down. Though her cultures did show a couple of bacterias, thankfully she's not got septic this time. Idk, that probably doesn't make sense, but it's stuff I think, yet feel guilty for.
Thank youIt would be (can’t think of word here - crazy? abnormal? delusional?) not to have these what-ifs try to intrude on your brain. I guess all you can do about them is acknowledge the fears and then just focus on the next hour, the next day, the next week, the next month.
I think you do a fantastic job with this. As a congenital worrywart, I truly don’t know how you do this. Not to embarrass you, but you’re truly an inspiration to a lot of us, as is Tiffany. {{{ Hugs }}} to both of you and to the girls.![]()
