I have only read the 2, so far. After many days and emails reaching out, I found two different books that had what I was looking for. There's several more I want to read I'll tell you about if you want.
The apocalypse of Paul was the one I read first. It had a profound effect on me. I cried and was more scared than I've ever been. It has changed me in some ways.
I don't think it should be included in the Bible and I'm glad it's not. Not because of the reasons you probably think.
I've struggled here for 10 minutes trying to figure out how to say it and can't. I think everyone should read the Bible as soon as they're old enough to read it. I think if you don't have a basic understanding of the Bible, you have no business reading this.