I don't remember who I've told about all of this, so I'll just pour it all out. Some of you know I've been dealing with cirrhosis. It's been ongoing for awhile now, and it's led to lots of complications in life. I've been out of work since May because of these complications. Last week, I went to Vanderbilt to see a hepatologist, an actual liver specialist. I actually ended up talking to two while I was there, and they basically told me I have endstage liver disease. It's not a question of if I'll need a transplant, it's when will I need a transplant. That they don't know yet. I'm supposed to go back in December for more tests, and hopefully more answers.
So yeah, I've been a bit stressed out recently. Add to that, I've taken prescription Xanax for years for anxiety, and now they're trying to wean me off. Withdrawal on top of every thing else has been extremely hard to deal with. Your body gets used to those drugs being there and then there not... I know some of you have gone though it, so you know how hard it can be, now throw that on top of my cirrhosis and all the complications that come with cirrhosis, some days are not very pleasant.
Once I get through the withdrawal, I need to start trying to exercise more. They want me to try and walk a mile a day. Doesn't sound like a big deal, but when you constantly feel weak and tired, and your prone to bad dizzy spells (all things that have developed due to the cirrhosis), it's more challenging than you would think. Not making excuses, I have every intention of doing what the doctors say in that regard, but I'm working in baby steps atm. The hardest thing will be adjusting my diet. That one I'm not so sure I can come through on.
I have all these pieces in my head, and I'm trying to put together the puzzle. Still have so much to mull over.