tl;dr
Today was my wife's birthday, and surprisingly I had a pretty good day.
My school was "Remote Learning Inclement Weather" Day, which means I had to Google Meet with my classes. So that kept me busy.
Then the rest of the day I spent with mom, even though we were doing some things with dad's estate and a lot of paperwork.
I was really dreading today, but the grandkids needed some "help" getting ready for school today, over half my students showed up in Google Meet, and I got to spend a lot of the day just mom and me.
So what was potentially going to be a pretty bad day I was dreading like the plague....well it turned out to be AOK
This was the first time it's been her birthday since she passed away last December on the 12th. I'll have that day, and dad's birthday on the 15th. Then my first Christmas without dad.
I don't think it necessarily gets easier, but what can't be cured must be endured.