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Weezer said:
You're confusing me. Are you agreeing or disagreeing with me. My exprience is that of someone who's had BPD for longer than I can remember. I went undiagnosed for most of my teen years. Even when they decided something was wrong, it took them time to decide what it was. Like most mental issues, I have crossover symptoms. I have some OCD tendencies and bouts of paranoia. My head is a very chaotic place. If most knew the ideas that flew around brain, I have no doubt they would call me insane. But I do what I can to maintain control.

I've been back on the med rollercoaster for the past few years. Sometimes it seems like it's helping, sometimes it doesn't. At least with these current meds I don't feel deadhead. Sometimes meds just leave you feeling numb, and unalive, and that's part of the reason you stop taking them. It's like phantom-limb. There's a piece you know should be there, and you can still feel the tingle. It's hard to exist when you can feel you're not whole.

And when it wasn't the deadhead feel, it was the stigma. Let's face it, we grew up in an era where mental illness carried a huge stigma. Taking meds to be "normal" was embarassing to me at one point. I had to learn to get past that, which I have. But there's still many who are embarassed to admit they have a mental problem and need meds to help with it. It's one of the reasons I learned to just blurt it out, because I was tired of hiding from it.

I can't speak to everything the govt has or hasn't done, but I can tell you symptoms are often overlooked because people don't want to see what's right in front of them. From someone who's been there, the symptoms themselves are a cry for help. The fact that you actually let people see something's off is a cry for help. If you wanted it to stay hidden, you'd spend your time alone. That's what I used to do.
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Voxx. Move for 100k but you really want to live outside and commute in. The cost of living and the effects on your sanity will definitely rise. You're single and still young. So fawk it. I'd live near Fulton county and deal crack to save money on rent though. Good luck , brah!
 
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MY3*VOLS said:
Voxx. Move for 100k but you really want to live outside and commute in. The cost of living and the effects on your sanity will definitely rise. You're single and still young. So fawk it. I'd live near Fulton county and deal crack to save money on rent though. Good luck , brah!
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There's so much troof here.

ATL is one of the only cities I'd leave Knoxville for.
 
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weather is just right. Laying in the porch swing on the deck watching NHRA qualifying with the torches lit. Life is good.
 
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