grizz, i've been there. that boy was talking about marrying me and then i didn't hear from him for a few days. instead of acting crazy, after the 2nd call he didn't return i just thought it best to give him his space. then a few days later he let me know that he had gotten a girl pregnant and that was the direction his life was going now. it's devastating for someone to make you feel expendable. especially someone you love and were/are emotionally invested in.
take a few minutes and be sad about it, but then you have to live by the mantra - fake it til you make it. you're gonna have days that are ****ty as ****, but you push through those, because a person like her and like my ex, don't deserve to steal the joy of people who have kind hearts and a capacity to love. you truly are a kind soul and from your interactions on here you will be a great husband to the RIGHT woman one day.
this lady, good bad or otherwise, isn't in God's plan for you, at least not right now. let her go and go make grizz happy. by closing the door on this chapter of your life you can begin healing and preparing yourself for things that will be so much better.