Had one of our Senior captains on my High School football team back 2 years ago take his own life 2 weeks before graduation. He was the one right before me in alphabetical order for graduation and it hit me so hard when we got up and I was next in line, but knowing someone was supposed to go before me. Needless to say, I accepted his diploma on behalf of his family and friends and there wasn't a dry eye in that convention center. It's hard to deal with, but just know that the pain never goes away, but the sadness in time will heal. Prayers with you my friend, but not only you, but to anyone out there who has gone through having a close one kill themselves and to all of those that were diseased in the way that made them make that choice. God Bless.