I JUST NEED TO VENT, skip if are looking for info!
Disclaimer:
Guys I'm a Gruden believer, and love this group in here. I need to vent a little, so please just skip if you don't want to read. No insight, inside info, theories... none of it is in this.
You guys are about the only ones I feel like talking to anymore and feel won't try to destroy me for posting.
I'm not sure how much longer I can keep this up. I feel like I just take hit after hit at the black jack table, raise my bet to try and win it back, all for it too keep happening. Knowing the end result.
I'm just tired of not seeing anything, even tho I know things have to be kept hush hush. I think the resentment caused by BJ and his smugness is what makes it worse for me. Every time he talks now I get furious. I've been tired of the results on the field, but I've had atleast the last 3 years to go thru the stages of grief(for two seasons we all gave him a pass). So sadly the results truly don't upset me anymore. I have as of this season finally grown numb to that part.
Now my frustration all hangs on the AD. It's not Butches fault he can't get it done, not everyone has what it takes, and he just doesn't:/. But it's the job of the university to find who can. And that's where the problem lies.
They would have allowed DD to stay on if it weren't for the fans who stopped coming to games. They behaved the same until 50k-60k a$$e$ were in the seats.
The athletic department could truly care less. They've grown accustomed to UT football bringing in the big money to support the other programs. And that money comes in despite the result on the field, so why get rid of a coach and pay him& his staff, and bring in a high cost coach& staff that will cut into their profits? Not saying I agree, just saying that's how I feel.
Seeing how the handled DD, ho me the were content with him truly set the tone for my feeling, and I see the same happening now. I became a huge fan while he was here(not because of him), so that's the beginning I can base my experiences on.
To all the posters with info, thank you. I truly "want" to believe you because I truly want better for the program. I'm just used to being let down, after being pumped up and invested on more occasions than you can remember.
To all the long time fans, I wish I knew how it felt to be a fan when their team was on top. I'm more than ever feeling like it's just not going to happen.