Griz, don't take this the wrong way as I'm not trying to be an ass, but drowning in self pity isn't going to help. It's okay to hurt, but you can't let it cripple you. It sounds like you and this girl are on two separate paths. You have to walk the one meant for you and not chase down hers hoping she'll change. Life is going to lead you somewhere, you just have to be strong enough to get there. We've all had broken hearts, bud. It's a sucky part of life, but you have to suck it up and fight through. Tomorrow the sun's gonna come up, just as it will the next day and the day after that. Life doesn't stop because you're hurting. It may feel like the world's coming to an end, but trust me, it's not. What's that old saying? "When one door shuts, God opens a window." Things are going to work out. I promise you, there will come a time when this is past and the pain is just a memory. You'll come out a stronger, wiser man.