Coming from an old man that lost and messed up at love until the one God chose to send me arrived - use this time to heal and come to peace with what you have gone through. I facilitate DivorceCare support groups and I do not want anybody to go through the pain of that if it can be avoided. It may not feel like it, but you dodged a bullet and your mom's illness may have been the tonic that heals you from the trials of your broken relationship. Use this time to dive into scripture, build your faith and be with those of like mind. When you least expect it He will send the right woman into your life. Thanks for sharing on here and you and your mom will be in my prayers.