What's Wrong With You?

#428
#428
My white blood cells been low for about a year now .... Guess I caught Haids from posting in the zone
 
#429
#429
Ever get that feeling in the pit of your stomach that something bad is on the horizon? It's been building for a few weeks now. I've been writing it off as anxiety about my upcoming medical tests, but the last several days it's rocketed exponentially. Maybe it's just paranoia, but I can't escape this intuition that something is about to blow up and not in a good way. My brain keeps trying to run through probabilities. So chaotic. It's like a bad BPD episode, but different somehow. It's like knowing something, having it just at the edge of memory, but just a fingertip out of reach. So damn frustrating. And the harder I try to see, the cloudier it becomes. Has me worried. Has me scared. Feel like my being is about to shatter at any second. I hate this feeling of helplessness that always comes at times like this. I think everyone just wants to feel they have some role in shaping their life, but at times like this, I don't feel like that. I feel like I'm about to be hit by a storm, and all I'll be able to do is hope I survive and can pick up the pieces. If I could sleep, I think I'd feel better, but sleep is proving elusive. The body is weary, but the mind is not.
 
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#430
I understand the anxiety part of that. Other than once, I've never been in serious health, but I've dealt with bad anxiety for many years now. It's one of the worst feelings, and can take over you if you don't control it. Hope you can be strong Weezer. Think positive and have faith that the best will happen. I'll keep you in my thoughts.
 
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#432
LittleCat said:
I understand the anxiety part of that. Other than once, I've never been in serious health, but I've dealt with bad anxiety for many years now. It's one of the worst feelings, and can take over you if you don't control it. Hope you can be strong Weezer. Think positive and have faith that the best will happen. I'll keep you in my thoughts.
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Feels worse than anxiety. I have xanax I take for anxiety, it isn't making a dent in this. No joking, I really wish I had a little weed to calm my nerves. One phone call and I could get some, but have a minor medical procedure Friday so I don't want to risk it. My nerves are fried right now.
 
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Weezer said:
Feels worse than anxiety. I have xanax I take for anxiety, it isn't making a dent in this. No joking, I really wish I had a little weed to calm my nerves. One phone call and I could get some, but have a minor medical procedure Friday so I don't want to risk it. My nerves are fried right now.
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Well don't dwell on it too much. As for weed, wouldn't risk it either with any kind of medical stuff coming up. But definitely sounds like ya need some lol.
 
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Weezer said:
Ever get that feeling in the pit of your stomach that something bad is on the horizon? It's been building for a few weeks now. I've been writing it off as anxiety about my upcoming medical tests, but the last several days it's rocketed exponentially. Maybe it's just paranoia, but I can't escape this intuition that something is about to blow up and not in a good way. My brain keeps trying to run through probabilities. So chaotic. It's like a bad BPD episode, but different somehow. It's like knowing something, having it just at the edge of memory, but just a fingertip out of reach. So damn frustrating. And the harder I try to see, the cloudier it becomes. Has me worried. Has me scared. Feel like my being is about to shatter at any second. I hate this feeling of helplessness that always comes at times like this. I think everyone just wants to feel they have some role in shaping their life, but at times like this, I don't feel like that. I feel like I'm about to be hit by a storm, and all I'll be able to do is hope I survive and can pick up the pieces. If I could sleep, I think I'd feel better, but sleep is proving elusive. The body is weary, but the mind is not.
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That's tough. I can't say I completely understand how you feel. I do start to feel similar when things seem to be going good. Its like things are too good to be true and its gonna hit the fan. Just gotta remind yourself that whatever happens is gonna happen. Momma has always said everything happens for a reason. Just remember, the Man upstairs is in control.
 
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Weezer said:
Feels worse than anxiety. I have xanax I take for anxiety, it isn't making a dent in this. No joking, I really wish I had a little weed to calm my nerves. One phone call and I could get some, but have a minor medical procedure Friday so I don't want to risk it. My nerves are fried right now.
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Hope the procedure goes well and relieves you of some suffering.
 
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Weezer said:
Feels worse than anxiety. I have xanax I take for anxiety, it isn't making a dent in this. No joking, I really wish I had a little weed to calm my nerves. One phone call and I could get some, but have a minor medical procedure Friday so I don't want to risk it. My nerves are fried right now.
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Watch 2 Mister Ed episodes and call me in the morning.

[youtube]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n43OFAstkr0[/youtube]

[youtube]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1gV5KdpJvYw[/youtube]
 
#443
#443
I survived the probe. Now that that's over with, I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. You may insert joke about pain switching ends here.

Seriously, I think I was stressed more about this damn test than I realized. So glad it's over.
 
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Weezer said:
I survived the probe. Now that that's over with, I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. You may insert joke about pain switching ends here.

Seriously, I think I was stressed more about this damn test than I realized. So glad it's over.
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Clean as a whistle, smelling like a rose....
 
#448
#448
A man's bung hole is a sacred thing. The idea of it being violated, even for medical reasons, was disturbing

I just tried to ask what would TRM do? Then I passed out and figured yeah, that's probably what Ron would do too. :)
 
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Weezer said:
A man's bung hole is a sacred thing. The idea of it being violated, even for medical reasons, was disturbing

I just tried to ask what would TRM do? Then I passed out and figured yeah, that's probably what Ron would do too. :)
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I call it going to my happy place.
 
#450
#450
Weezer said:
I survived the probe. Now that that's over with, I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. You may insert joke about pain switching ends here.

Seriously, I think I was stressed more about this damn test than I realized. So glad it's over.
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glad your over it
 
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