I have come to realize that something I once loved is only taking from me and is giving nothing back. Tennessee football has given me so much joy in the past, something to believe in, something to look forward to and something to share with the people I love. The past 10 years, though, have been rough. I stuck with it through Kiffin's trash talk, through Dooley's incompetence and through Butch's cliches. Through all of this there was a lot of heartbreak and disappointment with almost nothing to lift me up. One win against Florida in that time, no wins against Alabama, a couple of exciting wins against Georgia and a bunch of moral victories. Weighed against the pain and disappointment of those years the joy of Tennessee Football is gone. I am done. I give up. I can't take it anymore. When something you once loved only takes your happiness and gives you nothing back it is time to let go, as unbelievable as that felt 20 years ago. I have given too much of myself to keep investing in something that only brings pain. There is no light at the end of the tunnel folks, anyone seeing that is giving in to an illusion.