I think your conflating being defensive with bewilderment and curiosity at your thinly veiled anger towards me. Oh, I'm sure you think your doing God's work for you and "the gang", psycho-babbling about self loathing and needing Jesus.
Its hilarious that you have convinced yourself that your words upset or otherwise 'rattle' me. This forum is a snake pit of point-counter point, yet you've somehow assumed that any accusation or insult you levy, shouldn't be responded to - lest it be viewed as 'defensive'. Your entitlement in this regard is breathtaking.
Ironically, you'll probably slap your knee pointing at this post yelling "see defensive, just like I said!"
Carly Simon had a hit song about cats like you.