Have had a lot more thoughts about the deeper meaning of things lately. Not a fear or "fox hole" type thing, kinda the opposite. Seeing the devotion of so many here and what drives them, has triggered something. Thinking about getting into contact with Nick.
I've just always felt in the driver's seat of things and feel completely out of my element and lost ATM.
As far as help..
Never needed anything from anyone and was always the one trying to help. Not sure how to accept reversing my role or even how I would begin to ask or my feelings doing so.
You are helping more than you probably realize.